I need my chill pill

When we were trying to get pregnant, and all eyes were on me, that was stressful. Everyone around would be as anxious (if not more) every time I go see Dr F for review during the IVF process.

And now that we are finally there, the stress level has moved on to a different level! As if it's not stressful enough that you are not allowed eat certain food, do certain things, or even watch movies that I have been waiting for... of all people, my mom would practically breath down my neck stressing me out. Ever since the day we got news, she is practically checking on me every day! I am totally fine and I don't need all the checking all the time like if I had my breakfast, or if I'm asleep or if I'm having my meds (Cyclogest).

As it is my hormone is raging, I don't need all these unnecessary stress. I call it unnecessary because this is gonna make me tensed by answering the same thing over and over again. If ever there is anything out of the norm, I would tell my parents or my sis. So there is no need to check on me ALL the time!

Constipation

I know the title is gross but I think it's a very common problem for most pregnancy. I forgot to ask Dr F if I can take the laxative he gave me before. In the mean time, I rely on apple juice. Seems to work for now.

I read about eating fibrous food (vege & fruits) but it's not that effective compare to apple juice. I tried oranges but it gave me a nasty indigestion after that. Oh ya besides constipation, constipation/heart burnt seems normal. So far I only had once which is after the oranges so I skip oranges totally from then on.

Painful cramp

Last night I woke up from my sleep suddenly coz I had this sudden sharp pain (near my uterus area). I was so scared that I will have a miscarriage. But I remember Dr F said as long as there is no bleeding or it's not constant pain them it's alright. I tried to wake my deep sleep hubby to tell him but he was really dead asleep!! So I cringed and turned to my side to sleep and I felt much better.

This morning as I used the bathroom, I can't help but scrutinising every inch of my panty making sure there is no bleeding. I must confess... I kept touching my belly (since Wednesday) to find or to feel for any sign of my growing lil' fellas inside of me. So far no luck... last night I tried really hard to see if there is (are) new sign that they are growing. Of course nothing still...

I think I'm now on a hypersensitive mode comparing my body behavior if there will be any further changes or signs of miscarriage. Afterall, I'm still in the "danger zone" if first trimester. I certainly hope I'm just being paranoid.

Early Pregnancy Symptom

Is there really such as thing as early pregnancy symptom? I've read so many blogs about people having cramps, spotting, nausea, etc, even before the 2 week wait is over. I actually don't think it's real, at least not for me. I think having any symptoms during the 2 week wait is all in your head. You will feel every twitch happening down there, more so now than ever. It's probably happening every time before your period.

I have cramps but they are pretty much like premenstrual cramps, so how can one ever differentiate pregnancy cramp from premenstrual cramp really beats me. And the spotting, I too would experience the spotting once in a while prior to my period, so it doesn't count as any real pregnancy symptom to me, again.

Then I have lower backache, well, this is probably because I slept too much! HAHAHA!! So, to me this doesn't really count either...

So, there you go, I totally proved that there is no such thing as early pregnancy symptoms/hints whatever you want to call it.

I'm so excited

I'm still soaking on the good news that WE FINALLY MADE IT! I'm still feeling so excited and happy about it. I won't be announcing to my friends just yet until few more weeks. Well, you see we have lotsa old school Chinese believes that still lives on with us. And not telling people yet about our pregnancy till a few months into is one of it. I'm not quite sure why but the reason I'm going agree with this old school of thought is that my pregnancy is still very new and anything can happen.

Now that the fairy dust has settled, let me recollect what happen on one of the biggest day of my life!

This morning, hubby and I both woke up early because I need to get my blood tested. When I got up, I took another stick and did the test and is still positive. Great news I thought.

After our breakfast, hubby made me yummy half boiled egg, we were off to the clinic. While at the clinic, we decided to let me walk over to the Gribbles lab. Boy oh boy~ today my vein were on the shy side. The lab technician/nurse tried SOOOOO hard to find my vein. When she finally got it, my blood flow was really low and slow. In the end, she only managed 1unit instead of 3units of blood. She told me to wait while she put the blood sample to spin in the machine. I dreaded that she will have to do it again. After about 5 minutes, she said ok. Phew! What a relief!!

Before heading home, we decided to make a pit stop at BMW to pay up Hubby's car down payment and received news that my Mini Countryman is not available in Black. I had to choose between red and coffee. I avoided red and in the end we are getting the red.

Then we got home, and it's time for Cyclogest. I wanted to take a nap but in the end I didn't. Maybe too excited about the result that my brain was too active and cannot be shut down.

Ok... here to go... the moment of truth. When we arrived back at the clinic at about 1.30pm, there was no other patient. Good so my turn is up soon then. When we went into Dr F room, no facial expression from him. As he flipped through my chart and showed me my blood test I saw 563!!!!! We all let out a sign of relief and maybe some cheers:) 563 is WAY better than 4!! I confessed to Dr F that I couldn't resist it and did the stick. Hahahaha he promptly said "I knew it!" with a laugh. We all laughed. Yaye!! So happy. Dr F told me to return in 2 weeks and by then we can tell how many. but 563 is hard to tell if it's single or multiple. If it's at 1000 then higher chances of getting multiple pregnancy. He prescribed me with more Cyclogest, Progynova, Calcium pills an Folic Acid pills.

As my name was called by the nurse to pick up my meds, they were just as excited as me. I'm sure they are as nervous as me! This time we left the clinic- PREGNANT! Yaye!!!!!

FINALLY!!

Yes! Yes! Yes!!!! :) Coming back to see Dr F again in 2 weeks!

The wait is over

Today is the end of my 2 week wait. I didn't have much problem like cramps or indigestion, only a tiny thread of spotting. But last night, after Cyclogest, I got my first cramp- similar to a premenstrual cramp. I was hoping for no cramping throughout the 2 week wait. I'm not sure... if maybe it's just me being nervous. I will most certainly check with Dr F later.

As soon as I got up, I did the stick again- just to be sure. Still keeping my hopes and not too high, I'm afraid it could end up otherwise.