Is it not Sunday today?

I totally felt like it's Sunday today because this would mean a day nearer to the 15th. I can't wait for the day to come and at the same time dread for it. I would love to see a positive, what if it's negative. If it's a positive, how long do I have to wait for the pregnancy to become stable? If it's negative, what's next?

How do I feel physically... well, I don't feel that stretched from the bloating and that make me wonder if I'm even feeling bloated anymore. But during last night's dinner, I ate so little so yes I'm still bloated. But now, I got that bit of feeling that my period is coming. But it's not the same cramps feeling that I had the other day. I don't know if this is a good sign or bad one. So far, I have no spotting at all. but then again it's too early to have any spotting or sort since my actual period isn't until another week. I used to have spotting 2-3 days before my real period would come. So I think by next week, I'll have my tell-tale sign? Until then there is really nothing much that I can do, except to take my medication as prescribed an tomorrow will be another jab- for now it will be the last.

It's only been a week

This has to be the most agonising 2-week a person can ever encounter. It has only been a week and another week to go before I'm due for a check-up and bloodtest.

After having the medication that Dr F gave me, the cramps are gone. I was feeling bloated during dinner time hence didn't eat much. But it's a different kind of bloated feeling as compare to before. I was bloated but I could still eat but last night, I couldn't eat at all. Even my niece asked me why do I rest from eating! Haha. I felt different probably because of the meds- I hope so. I tried no to think too much, but that is easier said than done. I also feel more "sensitive" about my body- I tend to think more why the pain, what could be the same, if I feel hungry is good sign, how come I don't feel as bloated any more... all sorts of question would run across my mind whenever I "felt" something about my body.

For now, I'm continuing my bed rest as much as I can. I pray hard for a positive next week.

Cramps

no no no no!!! I've got cramps last night so am off to see Dr F now :(

UPDATE: Dr F did a tummy scanand showed that my ovaries are still larger than normal which is about 4cm+ so that could be the reason why I have cramps. So Dr F gave me medication for pain and reducing the swelling of the ovaries. I will try to avoid the painkiller if I can.When I had my fibroids removal and keyhole, I didn't have any pain medication after that. So if I can live without the painkiller then, I can avoid it now!

Today at 11am I'll have my Cyclogest and Pregnyl as scheduled. So for now, all is good.

Progesterone-d

I realised that both my once-in-3-days jabs are also progesterone based medication. I feel so progesterone-d. There are so many hormones involved in the whole process that it's back to biology class all over again!

I read that Progesterone increases during the Luteal phase (post ovulation phase) and it helps to support the gestation period (the carrying of the embryo or fetus during pregnancy). Looks like besides having to consume all these Progesterone, there is nothing much I can do during these 2 weeks of waiting.

Bumbum painpain

Today, besides having my Cyclogest at 11am, I need to have additional 2 jabs. One of which had to be done by a nurse or doctor. I went to a normal clinic nearby for the jab, brought my Proluton along, only to be turned away by the doctor!!!! I have a supporting document about my jabs and he refused to do it for me! The irony is, the clinic performs BOTOX injection!! Whatever~~~~~

So I ended up going to another clinic to have my Proluton jab.

When the nurse inserted the needle, I was like "hmmm... ok. This is not as painful as I thought it would have been." When the nurse pushed the solution in, I wasn't feeling a thing. Great! But this was only short moment of bliss... As I was walking out the clinic to the car, I felt that same super inhumane pain on my bumbum!!! Oh my oh my... the pain lingers on for a couple of hours. Well, looks like tonight I won't be sleeping on my right.

Can't sleep...

I don't know if it's because I have been sleeping more than usual in the day that now I can't sleep. I'm wide awake since 3am!!! I twist and turn, add another layer of pillow, lower the temperature of the AC... and I still can't sleep. I kept thinking I'm sleeping at the right position. Am I allowed to sleep only side- that's how I usually fall asleep. And I normally sleep on my stomach!!! I'm certain I can't do this anymore! Now I've got to try to get use to sleeping on my back and avoid sleeping on my side- at least for now.

I guess I can only try to sleep as comfortably with the right position. For now is on my back I guess. This is like getting a new bed, sleeping in a foreign place... Even sleep is harder besides walking super slowly up and down the stairs!

2 more agonising week

I was in the OT from about 12.15pm and waiting for my bladder to be full. And this is the part that I dreaded the most. I'm terrible in holding my pee. I've got to go when I've got to go!! I tried to keep myself as calm as possible and try not to think about it. I looked around the OT, sing in my head, say a little prayer... after almost 40minutes the nurse says that is time and they prep me further. At this time, I can barely hold my pee. My prayers intensified at this moment, "Give me STRENGTH oh Lord." I kept repeating this!!!

At about 1pm, nurse got me all prepped and Dr F came me and ask me to relax if I can. And he asked if I feel full, I told him, "Yes, very." And so he started all the work down there. My only thought, "Grant me strength."

And so it's all over by 1.15pm. All 3 embryos transferred and now I can only wait. And this is what I wore to the clinic :)